Have not got on with my work...

Yes, I have not.
And i am here indulging on the sins of reading random trivias... which I am so fond of doing.
What am I doing? nothing...I may say. Well, I still have time if i choose so. Better get going. Ciaoz...


A stab in the head...

FYP: Posting 1 - Pre Concept Billboard 2

Presentations been over with. And I showed my sucky board.

Its ugly, i know. It has no layout, and the wrong kind of title. I fixed the title in this one. Slightly better now, I hope.



The research board looks bad. I think the ideation board was ok. I especially like the dark corridor. It looked good on the projector when i presented. =P My Precon BB sucked big time. But anyway, it was all I could afford. At least I managed to show up and show it at the presentation, despite late. It was quite an acheivement, really, comparing to the past many sems. I should be relieved I did, though it was hard for me to feel.

I'd like to think that it is twice as difficult for me to do half the work that people do. Its not like I'm that stupid or what, at least people don't think so. But I'm anxious, and set high standards for myself, so much pressure which came from nowhere, it crippled me. I have to drag myself to scrape through, everytime, with every single thing that I do in my assignment. It was that bad. And by the end of it, I'm exhausted. Everybody is. But what disappoints me was what I could deliver, was hardly close to what others did. I wonder if I could've worked harder, done better. It breaks me. All of this. Like yesterday, the lack of sleep, the tension, I felt like I was gonna snap, cos the worst part of it was, its not the end yet. I have another week to go, 2 more submissions, or should I say 3, or 4.

Thesis report 3, 2 A1 Boards, an improved preCon billboard and sketch book.
But then again, seriously, if I'm to take it easy, the latter 3, I can just say, the hell with it. Maybe i can still make it through if I just get on with what I have. But I'm not like that. Im not satisfied. I can make it better, but there would be alot to do. Alot. And added with the thesis, I don't think its even possible to accomplish, all that I want to do. I want to make the best of it, fulfill all that the lecturers wish. But I guess, I cant. At least not all. I can try, do a thing or 2 better, but to do it all, it would be too much. Really. Think small, and simple. Keep it simple. Priority, submit on time, fulfill criterieas. Thats it. Be done. And to all fellow mates. until next time, good luck for your finals and all. And to some, remember, stick to the basics.

FYP: Posting 1 - Project Brief and Pre Concept Billboard

This would be the first "episode" of log for my VR Final Year Project work, for sharing and critique, so feel free to do so. Even though its the end of the second sem already. I know. But anyway, this will begin with the final presentation of the semester. Requirements:

- A1 Board Research- Environment & Context
- A1 Board Ideation - Character & Interaction
(Project title, 1 major, minor, subminor, name, id)
- Pre-Concept Billboard - VRML, print screens.

To be honest, I'm tired, and i think my work's gonna suck. I hardly know how to use the cosmo world. And i still have no idea what bench mark am I gonna use. So how? Where do I go from here?

Well, till next time, I'm checking out ....for now. Be back soon...hopefully...


Project Brief:

Category: Entertainment

Description: Role playing exploration

Problem Statement:

Childhood has been known as the time of wonderment, of innocence and dependence. Sometimes, adults wish to go back to being a child again. But most of the time, we forgot what is it like being a child, a young kid, a toddler, an infant. For most people, it is hard for them to imagine being a baby again and it is quite impossible to regain the experience of it.

With virtual reality, users can now view from the perspective of a baby again. To experience the limitations of it, such as the lack of height, energy, language skills, motor skills, as well as restrictions imposed by caregivers, such as being locked up in a crib. User can also experience what they see as a baby, with everything is so much larger, and not understanding what people say.

This is useful not only as a form of entertainment and get-away experience, but also for research purposes, such as for child care techniques and child accident prevention systems.

Project Mottephobia

For my final VR assignment for this semester, we are required to create a simulation based on a particular fear. For that, I have chosen a personal fear, a fear of butterflies and/or moths, either called mottephobia(for moths) or lepidopterophobia - which includes moths, butterflies and skippers - something between butterflies and mothhs.

It was quite a strange project for me, cos u see, these things do freak me out. And I'm here dealing with pictures of them, of many of them. pany pictures of them. Even animate 3D models of them. Yuks. By the way, I just removed a picture of a huge Urania month in this post cause its disturbing. >.<

As I was searching through the internet for related pictures, I came a cross a site called IHateButterflies.com, "the official site for the phobia of butterflies and moths. It has a forum which phobes like me, share their feelings and horrible experiences involving these so called "beautiful", flappy creatures.

I had my fair share of bad experiences with those things, like when that horrible huge Urania moth that flew into my bedroom, landed on top of my closet and stared at me with its monstrous bulging eyes and ended up being spray-mounted by a friend of mine, stuck to a piece of mounting board and threw out the window - heh, poor thing. Wonder if somebody picked it up to be used for their design projects.

Then there was this strange looking strangely shaped white moth which keeps disappearing and swims out when my bf tries to flush it down the toilet bowl. Must be a horrifying sight - I didnt dare to watch.

Then, i tried and recalled some vague memories of childhood experiences which involve something like flailing my hands about trying to shake off some moth, a bad boy laughing at me, a nanny bewildered by the chaos and sort.

But reading that forum, I am glad that I didnt live in some place like certain parts of America where they had millions of colonial or migrating butterflies, with the favourite ones being the monarchs. That could have scared the hell out of anyone, even those who are not really scared by regular butterfly encounters.

Then, there are those who would swear againts being in the same room with a moth or butterfly. For me, if its only a tiny moth and its not fluttering about or very near me, i wouldnt mind. I pity those who shiver only by looking at a picture of a butterfly. Life must be real tough.

But one thing i notice is that, when they mention about first childhood memories of butterflies, it usually involve everyone else laughing at you while youre scared shit. I believe that experiences like these cause the victim to develop a phobia. You begin to relate that particular creature to the feelings that you had at that time - the fright followed by trembling fear, and the helplessness when people not only dont help but put you into shame and humiliation.

Ofcourse, if after that you acted supportive and solve the problem, like catch it and throw it out the window, things could be easier. But if you belittle their fear, say that they just have to "grow up" and that sort of thing, its just not gonna help. Like this girl who said that when she was in kindergarten, they were out to a school trip. And while walking to their bus, she yawned, and a damned butterfly flew into her mouth. The kids around her started laughing first. When the teacher in front was aware of the situation, she laughed as well. It took some time for the butterfly to finally fly away. Needless to say, that experience left her scarred. Well, in that situation, I think one wont want to do anything unless you're an expert butterfly handler. But even if you dont help, at least you can try not to make it worse by laughing all the way unsympathetically.

Design & Photography

I have a feeling these days that more and more people are getting into photography. Could it be just my increasing awareness? I dont know. But lately, alot of "popular people" I see does photography.

I think that this is influenced by the digital photography revolution and that has made phtography so much cheaper and easier compared to traditional film ones. You dont have to fork out any money just to view the pictures that you've taken. Then, you can do it over and over again. Try endlessly to get the perfect pict, without worrying about how many rolls have you wasted. And you can just keep practising. Isn't this just cool? Anyone can do it once you get your hands on a nice, good digital slr. Or if you're like me, just make do with regular digicam. At least I can still have fun snapping around.

Actually, seeing photographs everywhere its not exactly a bad thing. Pictures are wonderful things. Capture the beautiful moments in life, nature, the world. How to see things around us differently. Just that, sometimes, its just boring that everyone is doing the same thing. Too much competition and too much similarity, redundancy. It takes so much more to be appreciated than just a colourful sunset or a random black and white. It takes passion, and from passion you built your skill, and from your skill, you develop your passion, and on and on. In the end of the day, its still about doing what you enjoy. It doesn't really matter what people think. If people like your work, you get famous. If people don't, either you just dont try to make money out of it or you try hard to sell yourself out there.

Well, actually, I really hate doing things that everyone else is doing. But then again, what I really want is just to make pretty things for people to look at and hope it makes them feel good. Beauty is my passion. Beauty is my art. Beauty... from my point of view.

Do you think this is beautiful? LOL...

By the way, I'm really happy i got this new design template. Got it from somewhere. Looks easy to customise. Pretty neat. Will customise it later. FOr now, adios people...